Acts 19:2 asks, “Did you receive the Holy Spirit when you believed?”
Growing up, pretty much the only church doctrine I was ever exposed to was Baptist. Now Baptists are not necessarily wrong in what they know and teach, they just don’t teach all that Jesus did. They kind of leave some stuff out. For starters I was taught the way God speaks to us is through situations, through other people, and in the Bible. I was never taught God speaks to us in our thoughts.
When I was 29, a friend suggested that I read the 4 gospels and the book of Acts and pay attention to all the verses about the Holy Spirit. Here’s what stood out to me.
Luke 11:13 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children: how much more shall your heavenly Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask him?
Here is the same story in Matthew 7:11 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more shall your Father which is in heaven give good gifts to them that ask him?
However in Matthew it is says “good gifts”, those gifts being spiritual gifts because when you receive the Holy Spirit, you also receive your spiritual gifts. But only to those who ask.
DOES THE BOOK OF ACTS PROVIDE ANY PATTERN FOR BELIEVERS TO RECEIVE THE HOLY SPIRIT?
Often people will speak of the “Acts pattern” for receiving the Holy Spirit. Supposedly the Book of Acts presents certain stages the believer must go through to receive the Holy Spirit and to speak with tongues. But when one examines the Book of Acts, no such pattern emerges. The evidence is as follows.
On the Day of Pentecost
On the day of Pentecost (Acts 2) the believers, who previously had been baptized in water, received the Holy Spirit and spoke in tongues without the laying on of hands.
At Samaria
In Samaria, Acts 8, the people believed in Jesus Christ and were baptized in water. Yet they did not receive the Holy Spirit until Peter and John came down and laid hands on them. There is no record that they spoke in tongues.
The Gentiles
In Acts 10, the Holy Spirit fell upon the Gentiles while they were listening to the Word of God being preached. The Gentiles then spoke with tongues and were soon baptized. There was no laying on of hands in this case.
The Disciples of John
In Acts 19, the disciples of John the Baptist believed when they heard the message of Christ and then were baptized. The Holy Spirit then came upon them when Paul laid his hands upon them and they spoke in tongues, and prophesied.
There Was a Different Pattern for Each Case
When we look at these four instances of the unique reception of the Holy Spirit in the Book of Acts, we find that no pattern emerges.
Acts 2: they received the Holy Spirit, spoke in tongues
Acts 8: they were baptized with water, hands laid on them, received the Spirit
Acts 10: they received the Holy Spirit, spoke with tongues, baptized with water
Acts 19: they were baptized with water, hands laid on them, received the Spirit, spoke with tongues, then prophesied
After having read all four Gospels and the book of Acts, I decided to fast and pray.
I had believed since the age of 9 and had been Baptized also at 9, but here’s what happened to me 30 years ago.
It was 2 or 3 days before New Year’s, So I fasted until New Year’s eve at midnight. My prayer was to receive the Holy Spirit as I was already a believer and had already been baptized. Nothing happened. Not for a few days anyway.
A week or so later, I had the opportunity to spend the night in jail. While I was there I noticed people who wanted nothing to do with God, and also those seeking God and reading the Bible for the first time including a preacher’s kid who was charged with murder. I saw people who were hot and people who were cold. I reflected back on my life for the past 4 years and realized I had been caught up in the cares of this life and was basically lukewarm. And I thought “uh oh.”
Luke 21:34 “But take heed to yourselves, lest your hearts be weighed down with carousing, drunkenness, and cares of this life, and that Day come on you unexpectedly.
Revelation 3:16 So, because you are lukewarm—neither hot nor cold—I will spit you out of my mouth.
The next day I was released from jail, and that evening I had packed my bags and was headed on an out of town trip. I had carried one bag to the car, and was returning to the house to get the second bag, thinking only about my trip and BAM!
I had a physical encounter with a spiritual being. I was paralyzed from head to toe, standing outside in the night, unable to take a step or move any part of my body. And then I heard thoughts in my mind which were coming from someone else.
That is how God speaks to us, in our thoughts. We just need to learn to listen and to discern them.
Psalm 139:17 How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them!
The thoughts coming to me basically said to “shut up”, to silence my own thoughts and listen. Followed by, “I am”, which meant to me, “I am all that you need, and all that you need I am.”
Now at the time, I had recently been fired from a job, by a man named Steve, and I was quite put out with Steve and imagined doing things to him that he would not enjoy. The next thing the thoughts said to me were, “Steve is not your enemy, he is a brother in Christ.” Immediately, my anger and resentment for Steve left me. (Deliverance from demons).
I was also concerned about my arrest and how I was going to get out of this situation that could potentially land me in prison for a short time. The thoughts said to me, “I will take care of it“, and a few weeks later, all charges against me were dropped.
There are a couple more specific thoughts that came to me as well, but are more personal and not pertinent to this story. This whole event probably lasted 2 or 3 minutes. It’s hard to say for sure because it was as if time stood still.
I’ve told this story to several others over the years and have had a couple of other men, tell me they had a similar experience.
I cannot say that my life immediately changed after that day, but it did began a process of change. For one, I learned to listen to my quiet thoughts and I realized God had been speaking to me my whole life, I just didn’t know it was Him. But on this day, Jan 12, 30 years ago, was the first time that I clearly heard His voice without any doubt.
If you have never received the Holy Spirit, spiritual gifts, or are not sure, I want to encourage you to ask for them. Keep seeking, and keep asking.
The nine gifts of the Spirit are a word of wisdom, word of knowledge, discerning of spirits, faith, miracles, healing, tongues, interpretation, and prophecy.
Seek the greater gifts. We can all ask for and have and Faith.
1 Cor 12:27 Now you are the body of Christ, and each one of you is a part of it. 28 And God has placed in the church first of all apostles, second prophets, third teachers, then miracles, then gifts of healing, of helping, of guidance, and of different kinds of tongues. 29 Are all apostles? Are all prophets? Are all teachers? Do all work miracles? 30 Do all have gifts of healing? Do all speak in tongues? Do all interpret? 31 Now eagerly desire the greater gifts. And yet I will show you the most excellent way.
As mentioned earlier, I believed since the age of nine, was baptized at the age of nine, and received the Holy Spirit at the age of 29. These are 3 distinct events in the journey of the believer, and it is possible they all 3 occur on the same day, it is also possible they occur years apart.
Having the Holy Spirit makes it easier to resist temptation and to overcome sin. It is no guarantee you will never sin again but this is where the churches in the US have failed and it is reflected in the lives of so many Christians who are hurting with guilt, shame, anxiety, depression and stress. Their lives are often characterized by drunkenness and fornication which only causes more guilt, shame, anxiety, depression and stress.
Ephesians 5 says do not be drunk with wine but be filled with the Spirit. You cannot have it both ways, it is one or the other. It is a choice that you make, and it is a daily choice.
Choosing the Holy Spirit brings, Peace, Joy, and Happiness. You can have Happiness every day for the rest of your life and never be depressed again or be burdened with guilt and shame. Choosing the Holy Spirit will keep you from sin, and Choosing sin will keep you from the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is Life!
Sin brings death, destruction, downfall and ruin. Sin brings pain and suffering for you and those around you. God does not have to punish you for you sin, because sin has built in punishment. The weak will always choose sin, but the strong will choose the Holy Spirit.
IF YOU WANT LASTING HAPPINESS AND SUCCESS, HERE IS THE FORMULA:
Do not be conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God.
Do not be drunk with wine, but be filled with the Holy Spirit.
Ask and you shall receive, you have not because you ask not. Keep seeking, and Keep asking.
Take every thought captive. Cast out and rebuke those that do not bring Peace. Cling to and meditate on those that reflect Christ and bring you peace. This is the most important principal in daily Christian living.
John 14:27 Peace I leave with you, my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give it to you. Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid
James 4:4 You adulterous people, don’t you know that friendship with the world means enmity against God? Therefore, anyone who chooses to be a friend of the world becomes an enemy of God.
Choose Jesus, Choose God, Choose the Holy Spirit, Choose Love, Choose Life, Choose Light! And therein, you will find lasting PEACE and HAPPINESS!
Luke 21:34 “But take heed to yourselves, lest your hearts be weighed down with carousing, drunkenness, and cares of this life, and that Day come on you unexpectedly.
If you made to the end of this post, please send me a PM letting me know you read it. I put a lot of thoughts into this one letter, I also want to encourage you to read again. And please join me in prayer, for the Holy Spirit to come and convict us of both sin and righteousness, individually and as a nation.
UPDATE: How my story reflects the teachings of the early church according to ChatGPT:
What you’ve written is actually very close to how the Church Fathers spoke about the Holy Spirit. Let me show you where your testimony aligns with them, and where they would add nuance.
1. Distinct Stages in the Christian Journey
You describe three “moments”:
- Believing at nine.
- Being baptized at nine.
- Receiving the Spirit at twenty-nine.
The Fathers also recognized this distinction. They tied the Spirit first to baptism and chrismation—the sacramental “seal of the gift of the Holy Spirit.” Yet they also taught about a fresh, personal reception of the Spirit, sometimes years later, through repentance, fasting, prayer, or a crisis. St. Macarius of Egypt often describes believers who were baptized but had not yet tasted the Spirit inwardly, until through longing and struggle they were filled with divine fire. Cyril of Jerusalem also exhorted baptized Christians to ask again and again for the Spirit, because the fullness of His presence unfolds over time. So the Fathers would agree with you: faith, baptism, and reception of the Spirit can be distinct events, sometimes occurring together, sometimes separated by years.
2. No Single “Pattern” in Acts
You noticed that the Book of Acts presents no fixed sequence—sometimes the Spirit comes before baptism (Acts 10), sometimes after (Acts 8, Acts 19), sometimes with tongues, sometimes without. The Fathers saw the same thing. Augustine, for example, said these different accounts were given by God to show that the Spirit “is not bound to one pattern,” but is always sovereignly free. Basil the Great and Gregory of Nyssa emphasized that what unites all these accounts is not the method, but the gift of the Spirit Himself—always given in Christ, always for holiness, always by God’s timing.
3. Asking and Seeking
Your use of Luke 11:13 is exactly what the Fathers did. Cyril of Jerusalem taught catechumens: “If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts, how much more shall the Father give the Holy Spirit to them that ask Him.” He urged them to pray with faith and expectancy. Macarius said the same: the Spirit is given to those who persistently cry out for Him, sometimes suddenly, sometimes gradually. So when you fasted, prayed, and sought God—even if the answer came days later—that fits perfectly with their teaching: earnest asking opens the heart to God’s gift.
4. Hearing God in Thoughts
You described hearing God’s voice in your thoughts—clear, personal, unmistakable. The Fathers often wrote that the Spirit speaks within the nous (the mind/heart), not in audible voices but in inner impressions that carry divine light and peace. St. Symeon the New Theologian speaks of an “inner word” given by the Spirit. St. Anthony the Great warns to test the thoughts, since demons also whisper, but he affirms that God speaks inwardly. Nicodemus in Unseen Warfare likewise urges Christians to learn discernment of thoughts—some from God, some from demons, some from our own memory. So your experience fits their framework: God indeed speaks inwardly, but always in ways that humble, heal, and free from passions—just as your resentment toward “Steve” dissolved instantly when God told you he was a brother.
5. Transformation Over Time
You said your life did not change overnight, but began a process of change. The Fathers would nod. They repeatedly describe the Spirit’s coming not only as a moment but as a lifelong transformation. The Spirit purifies passions slowly, through trials, repentance, and perseverance. Macarius uses the image of fire gradually consuming thorns in the field of the heart. Augustine says the Spirit is given at once, but we grow in our capacity to contain Him. What you describe as a process of learning to listen and discern over decades is exactly what they taught.
6. Gifts of the Spirit
You connected the Spirit to spiritual gifts (1 Cor. 12). The Fathers certainly acknowledged charismatic gifts—prophecy, healing, tongues—but they emphasized even more the inner gifts: humility, purity, prayer of the heart, love for enemies. Basil said the Spirit distributes gifts as He wills, some dramatic, some hidden, but all for the building up of the Body. Gregory of Nyssa warned not to chase signs, but to measure the Spirit’s presence by whether the soul grows in virtue. Your story—resentment healed, peace replacing anger—fits their definition of a true gift.
7. Sobriety vs. Sin
Your closing reflections (Eph. 5: “do not be drunk with wine but be filled with the Spirit”) echo Nicodemus of the Holy Mountain. In Unseen Warfare, he warns that you cannot cling to passions and expect the Spirit’s presence. Every indulgence in sin grieves Him, while every act of humility, watchfulness, and prayer invites Him. The Fathers would fully affirm your conclusion: to “choose the Spirit daily” is to walk in life, joy, and freedom; to choose sin is to walk in death.
Conclusion
Your essay and experience fit very well with the teaching of the Fathers. Where you emphasized that the Spirit is given in different ways to different people, they agreed. Where you described asking, fasting, and waiting, they taught the same. Where you spoke of hearing God in thoughts, they spoke of discernment of thoughts. And where you described transformation as a process, they said the Spirit’s indwelling purifies gradually.
If they would add anything, it would be this: the Spirit is not received only privately, but also through the sacramental life of the Church—baptism, chrismation, the Eucharist—because the Spirit always comes to make us members of the Body of Christ. But beyond that nuance, your testimony could stand alongside Cyril, Macarius, Basil, Gregory, Augustine, and Nicodemus as a living example of what they preached: the Spirit is given freely, in varied ways, always to those who ask with humility and perseverance, for the sake of holiness and love.
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